--- giving a damn .,

[kyler noel perrin.]

^{dude. when the fuck did our lives get so damn complicated?}

closed to tristan !

[tristan james valmont.]

^{--- uh, when bailey got pregnant and lost one of the babies and you .. idk - why is your life so complicated?}

[kyler noel perrin.]

<sup>about the time that i started dating boston and svetlana decided that she misses me and wants me back all of a sudden. it's great fun, let me tell you.

i'm really sorry about all that, by the way. i mean i know i said it and everything, but still. neither of you deserved that. especially when i know how psyched you were starting to get.</sup>

[tristan james valmont.]

<sup>--- yeah, svet told me you were dating her. and where do you stand? which one do you reallly want?

yeah well, whatever. i can't change it. but it makes me feel like a huge douche for trying to get bailey to get an abortion in the beginning.</sup>

[kyler noel perrin.]

<sup>i really care about boston, and i think things could go in a good direction with her. svet had her chance, and she didn't want anything to do with me romantically. boston is the first relationship i've had since svet that makes me feel positive again.

and you can't feel bad about that, dude. you were scared...no one blames you. besides, it's not like you knew how things were going to turn out.</sup>

[tristan james valmont.]

<sup>--- then go with boston man. i'm kind of obligated to be on team svet, but just go with whichever one you think.

how could i not feel bad about that? i asked her to get rid of the babies and in turn, my daughter died. its a pretty fucked up and late way of getting what i wanted at first.</sup>

[kyler noel perrin.]

<sup>i think what really sucks the most is the fact that i'll never really get a chance to know now what could have happened with me and svet. but that was her choice, not mine, and now we both have to live with it.

but this isn't what you wanted at all, man. no one thinks that, so you shouldn't, either. i highly doubt bayles blames you for it. which means you shouldn't blame yourself whatsoever.</sup>

[tristan james valmont.]

<sup>--- see, the fact that you think that sucks has to mean something. you still have feelings for svet, right?

its not that i'm blaming myself. it just, really sucks. and i just feel like a dick because it's originally what i wanted. i never thought that this would happen, though.</sup>

[kyler noel perrin.]

<sup>fuckk i don't know dude. i mean, she hurt me. a lot. i can't just forget that, can i?

of course you didn't think this would happen! no one did! so you have no reason to feel like a dick. it's one thing to want her to get an abortion before you get used to the idea of having children. but once it's actually happening, it completely changes everything. you didn't want your children to die, tristan.</sup>

[brody simon forrester.]

<sup>--- well , no. you can't forget it. but you could try forgiving her? i mean, i was a complete jackass to bailey after she told me she loved me for the first time. and now we're back together and i've finally gotten over myself enough to admit that i feel the same way? me and svet are actually a lot alike, like that. idk, maybe she just needs that too? but i'm not going to try to butt into you and boston.

i didn't want her to get the abortion because i didn't want the baby though, it was because she could have died. and i mean, i'm glad it wasn't bailey.. but i didn't think it would suck so much to lose something that i didn't even have time to get to know.</sup>

[brennan reed carlyle.]

<sup>it just really pisses me off that she decided to just randomly tell me this now, after all the time i spent fighting a one-sided battle for her during our little...whatever the fuck it was. it's like she just wants me because i'm finally happy with someone else. idkk. i really care about boston, a lot. i think i might be starting to fall in love with her, dude. it's that serious. but this whole thing with svet has me royally confused. i don't know what to do. it just isn't fair and i feel like i'm gonna start resenting svet for putting me in this position in the first place.

true. you were worried for her. you wanted to save her life, which makes you a decent guy. and not even gonna lie, you're way stronger than i am for handling all this. but then again, you've been saying that for how long? haha</sup>

[tristan james valmont.]

<sup>--- and like i said, svet's a lot like i used to be. idk, i guess i can understand why shes doing what she did. but it doesnt make it any better. that is pretty serious man. i dont know how you can actually come out and say that about both of them . the only girl i've ever been able to fall in love with is bailey. but i guesss we are pretty different with all that shit.

the only reason i'm handling it is because i hate sounding upset and shit. and because baileys taking it really hard, we can't both be like that, because i mean, we have sawyer.</sup>

[brennan reed carlyle.]

<sup>that doesn't make it any easier for me to understand. i don't get this at all, and i'm just pissed and confused. god, i hate girls.

that definitely makes sense. one of you has to be strong, so you just assume it has to be you. but it's okay to be upset. it doesn't make you weak, it makes you human. gay as that may sound, it's true.</sup>

[tristan james valmont.]

<sup>--- i know it doesn't. uh, don't turn into a homo on me.

that sounded extremely lame , but i won't deny its true. i just dont like to be upset. i mean i am, because i dont know how i wouldn't be. my daughter died, thats kind of, big.</sup>

[kyler noel perrin.]

<sup>thanks for that vote of confidence, you ass.

you know, i'm trying to help you here, and you just keep ragging on me. fine, i'll keep my words of wisdom to myself from now on. but yeah, i can't exactly see many people not being upset about that. unless they're like fucked up or something.</sup>