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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{well i hate to break it to you, but i'm not most guys. and i definitely never saw then when i looked at you. i probably never will. you can't keep doing this to yourself. you can't keep shutting down and not feeling anything good just so you won't feel anything bad, either. it doesn't work like that. and that's a shitty way to go through life. i don't know what reason you could possibly have to be pissed at me, but okay, whatever.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{that's why i'm telling you how i feel about you now. it is a sucky way to live your life. i know some day down the road you will realize i am the girl for you not boston. you are oblivious. i am mad at you for being with boston.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{i really don't think the whole 'better late than never' thing applies to this situation. i had to get on with my life at some point, you know. i couldn't just be stuck on you forever when you seemed to want no parts of us being together. and how do you know boston isn't the girl for me? please, enlighten me.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{i'm not expecting you to leave her for me. i would love for that to happen, but i know the facts. you care about her and not me. you moved on and i didn't. i'm just telling you how i feel because i never allowed myself to express it. i know it's too late now. you really don't have to remind me. you and i click in ways most people don't. you are the mac to my cheese.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{i never said that i didn't care about you, svet. because i do. you know i do. i just can't care about you in the way that you need me to right now. you have to understand that. or at least if you can't understand it, then i at least need you to respect it. we did click, and we still do. look. i'm not saying i want to cut you out of my life completely or anything, because i'm not that kind of a guy. but i'm with boston, which means that there have to be some boundaries now. and if you can't deal with that, then...i don't know what to tell you. and i'm not saying that to be an ass. i'm saying that to be honest. if you can tell me the truth about your feelings, then i owe you the same.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{i wish you lied to me. it would make it so much easier for me to accept the fact all we'll ever be is just friends. i think it would be best if i cut you out of my life. it'll save us both the trouble.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{well, you've been calling the shots so far, so if that's the way you feel about it, then i guess you gotta do what you gotta do. i really do hope you find what you're looking for, though. you know, relationship wise. and i don't mean to sound patronizing. again, just being honest. things just...didn't work out with us, i guess. so if you need to make a clean break, then i understand and i won't stop you. no matter what, though, i just need you to know that i will always be here for you. even if you don't want me to be.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{yup, i already did. i'm going to become a nun, trusttt. our relationship ended before it ever really got started. i don't know how you can say things just didn't work, but whatever. save that shit for somebody that cares. i don't want you to be there for me. you have blondie you can rescue when she needs it. i don't need you.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{oh my god, you have got to be the single most infuriating girl i have ever met in my entire life! one second you're all about wanting me, the next you're not. you get pissed at me for not being there, then i try to be, and you get pissed at me again! you know what? i'm not about to sit here and play these mind games with you. i told you what i thought, so if you're gonna go, then just go and stop dragging it out already. you can't even say that you want me. you don't even know what the fuck you want! so when you figure it out, let me know. or don't. i don't care anymore.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{i do want you, but i can't have you ! if i become a nun then i'll never have to see you or boston acting all couplely. i told you what i want, but you won't give it to me. see, you don't care about me.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{you didn't want me when you had me! because you can't get what you want now, it means i don't care about you? god. if only you knew how fucking wrong you are. but you are right about one thing. i can't give you what you want. not now, anyway.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{how many times must i go over this with you? i was afraid of letting you in ! yup, i'm always wrong. if you care about then you wouldn't be rubbing it in my face that you're with boston ! it hurts a lot. you can, though. just dump the ugly bitch (:}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{i'm not rubbing anything in your face! if i was, then why would i have just told you that i care about you and i would always be there for you? clearly i just can't win with you. and i'm not just gonna randomly dump boston because you finally came to your senses. it doesn't work like that. just like if you were dating someone else, i wouldn't ask you to dump him.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{why do you care about me? why do you want to be there for me? sadly, you can't. just tell her your heart is in a different place. it's so simple, dude.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{i don't even know why myself. i can't explain it. it's just like something is telling me that i need to be there for you, even if you don't realize it. i don't really know where it comes from, but the feeling is there all the same. something just doesn't want me to let you go like that, to just let you walk away completely. i don't understand it, or know what it means, but it's there. and you're right. we do click in a big way, on another level. somehow we get each other, even when we don't quite understand each other. how could i just walk away from that? but my heart is right where it's supposed to be, svetlana. i want to be with boston. i'm sorry, but it's true.}