--- hasn't been long enough .,

[svetlana de paul]

_{i wish i was :/}

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[wesley finn beaumont.]

^{and you're telling me this now...why, exactly?}

[svetlana de paul]

_{because i fucking miss you. you're the only guy i ever fell for. why are you being so hostile towards me?}

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[wesley finn beaumont.]

^{i'm not being hostile, i'm just trying to wrap my brain around this whole thing. first you push me away when we get close, and now you're getting mad at me for not being close with you? can i ever win with you, svet?}

[svetlana de paul]

_{did it ever cross your mind i was afraid of getting close to you? i don't wear my heart on my sleeve, kyler. i don't like people seeing me when i'm vulnerable. i know what's it like being without you and i hate it, i really do.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{then why the hell didn't you ever just tell me that? all you did was just push me away and push me away, for what seemed like no reason whatsoever! and you know about me and boston. you can't just say all this now, out of the blue.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{i thought it would be best for us if i just pushed you away with no questions asked. yes, i can. you can sit there and take it like a man. what does she have that i don't?}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{really. and how is that working out for you? no. don't do that. don't you dare ask me that. that's not fair and you know it.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{it's not working that well, unfortunately. i am doing it to you. seriously, what does she have that i don't?}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{well for starters, there's the fact that when i wanted to be with her, she actually wanted to be with me, too. i mean, really, svet...what the fuck do you want me to say?}

[svetlana de paul]

_{you want to be with me and not her, for starters. my list can go on all day !}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{i did wanna be with you! i can't help it if you changed your mind. you had made it perfectly clear that things were done between us, so why would i wait around? i really care about boston, you know.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{you could have fought for me, but you didn't what was i to you then? some whore you could fuck anytime you wanted. i hope you have a nice life blondie.}

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[kyler noel perrin.]

^{what?! are you fucking serious? how could you even think that? i wanted to be with you more than anything, but every single time i tried to be, you had some reason to distance yourself from me. our whole relationship was a one-sided battle, but you just didn't realize it. and if you honestly believe that i think something like that, then it's a damn good thing we aren't still together, because that means you really don't know me at all.}

[svetlana de paul]

_{because most guys see me as that? i was afraid of the way you made me feel, ffs. i just had to end things before they could even start. i was trying to save myself from possible heart break. i do know you ! ik, you didn't view me as that. i'm just royally pissed at you, so i'm saying shit i don't mean.}

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